do i really move on??

i've been cheeky again. did things i should not have done. i emailed cc the other day and 2 days back, he emailed me telling me about his life up there. he is expecting his second baby. his wife is getting big now. i am so glad for him, really. though, a bit jealous and hurt. but time has passed and we've moved on...

why i still could not stop thinking about him after reading his email. but i just wonder how he is doing. never wish to turn back time and win him back.. just wonder what if i went to meet him in samui 5 years ago. what would happen after that. it was around this time of the year that he came back to thailand to meet me. but i didn't go and disappeared from his life...

::sign::

anyway, so glad that i have gotten things done quite a lot today and wasn't hooked myself up with the internet too much.. i am going out when the sun comes down to tesco, in hoping for getting new movies to watch tonight and capturing some nice pictures along the way. sister is away to her hubby's house so i am going to be homealone..

today i made another record. i managed to challeng myself to run 4 kms.. it is not an usual thing as i needed to keep telling myself that if i reached 4 kms, i would absolutely feel different... yeah, i did feel different and glorious..