I used to be a hyper girl; working, driving, talking, multitasking, being available 24 hours a day/ 7 days a week... I had been there, I had done that for 8 years! ( 8 years! I can't believe that ).
This morning, while I was writing morning pages, I posed lot of questions to myself. Why I didn't leave SPIE earlier? Why I didn't leave the comfort zone sooner? Why I sticked to only one place far too long?
The answers were...
...the car payment.
...I was afraid..
...I was living luxuriously on that high pay...
...I worried about PT...
...family expectation, people's expectation...
...I had a great boss.
...I loved my job but I hated one of my workmates..
...I love challenges at work.
etc..
Those reasons wasted away my time for 8 years. I should have quitted it earlier and tried other fields of work. I should have worked, traveled, lived in many other places than confinding myself in only one place.....
However, I am so seriously happy for the choice I have choosen 3 years ago. No more Monday blue. No more meetings. Honestly, this company made me hate meeting. It freaked me out thinking about it..
But I am free now...
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