before parking our motorcycle...
running inside psu
quiet monday morning.. we should have done this often..
look, how beautiful it is..
i want to stop thinking what is bugging me now...i got up at 4 am and didn't feel sleepy at all. bc something was bugging me.. since pt came back from offshore, my sis stopped talking to me.. i don't know what the hell we did wrong. i really don't know and this really is bugging us. i tried talking to her on sunday morning but she talked very little... after that i tried again and her mood still hasn't lifted up so i gave up.. i will wait until pt goes back offshore and see if her mood will be better...or wait until she wants to talk.. she talks nicely to many people each day but she refuses to talk to her own sis..
i wrote in my journal this morning, together with a cry.. i've not cried for very long time. so this was a good cry as i could let thing out.. i wrote, i cried, i wrote, i cried, until i reached 4 pages..while writing, i thought about my secret dream.. i've dreamed about having my own house near the beach.. when thinking about this house that i am living, it's not mine, it's my sis's. when thinking of leaving it or being kicked out, i have no place to stay and i am out of job.. well done! problem had me think big thought.. i told pt about this this morning and he said beach house costed me a bomb.. i said didn't want such a big and luxurious house but i just want a cottage by the beach where i can live alone and feel like home.. this i have to keep dreaming and keep finding way to have one.. this my secret dream has popped up in my thought again when i had problem..
after writing, i went down to tidy up the kitchen and prepared breakfast for kla..
i saw that my sis was wearing running outfit and was ready to run. so did i. but i let her use the threadmill and i asked pt if he wanted to go running with me in psu.. he said why not?. so we were off with his motorbike..
it was a quiet monday morning, as it was still early.. we parked the motorcycle in front of psu and then walked inside, then ran to the dam.. we ran 2 rounds. while running, we still tried to figure it out why my sis stopped talking to us.. what the damn things that we did wrong. she didn't say and i really didn't have the mood to ask her.. she will get a better mood soon, i really hope..
after finishing 2 rounds, we stopped to pick jampa and then ran back to our motorbike..
upon reaching home, i went up to my room to take a shower and pt watered the plants and took kla to school.. it was great to have him helped around so each day i won't feel out of breath rushing things..
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