self-portrait and my saturday morning..

this morning, i woke up a bit late and nearly made kla late for his school too. actually, he woke up before me. then my single-mom-duty had begun. i went downstairs to cook breakfast for him and myself and then brought him school. it was the second saturday that he had to go to school for the compensation of the 2 days off next month on monday and tuesday..
then i came back to my heavenly quiet house. i started my saturday by detoxing and reading. and later, i kept on reading in bed. i was hooked by the book for 20 minutes and then felt ichy for writing and scrapbooking.

so i decided to write first. i went through the box of old and unwritten postcards and picked 9 postcards to write. i wrote 2 to myself and 7 to my friends... they will slowly travel both inside and outside the country.. it's been a long time that i've not written postcards at home. currently, i wrote them bc i just came back from a trip.. but before, i constantly made time to write them out.. so this morning, it was a make-up for the lost time..

i also wrote one to one of my male friends who i often sent to when i travelled but a while ago, i've stopped bc i didn't know how he felt. i've never received any response from him and i felt like i sent the postcards to a ghost. lately, he texted me on hi5 saying that he was missing me and wanting to talk to me but he had to gather his courage to phone me. what the heck is that supposed to mean??? i don't understand. so i texted him back saying that i was not a giant that he had to gather courage to call. and this morning, i wrote a postcard to him.. i don't know what the image of me that he created and let it scared him to talk to me..

2 postcards from russia i wrote to myself. they were from my sister and she gave to me without writing on them. i understand that she is not a writing person but she knows that i love postcards. so she gave me the blank ones. i wrote two to myself bc i wanted to keep them as gifts from my sister.. as for the ones for my friends, most of them were from russia too. they were not for sale but free from the shops there. i think they look cool and unique..

after writing postcards, i scrapbooked. i sat flipping through magazines looking for pictures to make the background of a mini called "random things".. i will show them next time. it's still a work in progress..

used and cheap magazines i bought when i was at a flea market. i prefered buying "elle" bc of its arty pictures and the kind of the paper they use. it's not so thick.

it's my happiest time of the day, getting lost and digging deeper in something i love to do.. i feel relaxed and free and it's a way to boost my creativity and unwind..


after scrapbooking, i wrote my morning page. it was already lunch time then! today, i've made up for the lost and busy time during weekdays. i wrote with no interruptions. i wrote non-stop. i wrote and had lunch at the same time. i wrote 12 pages!
there are things that have nagged me during the week but i didn't have time to write them down. so today, everything had been vented out.
i felt light and relieved after completing my morning page. it's a writing to talk and communicate to myself. to understand myself more and to prevent myself from talking bad things to others. after writing them down, i felt like i've talked them through to the persons i wanted to talk but don't want to talk just now..