as i've told you that i am over him. yes, i am over him and i am doing good with my life. i am adjusting to the life without him. but there are still one of those days that i miss him and i miss us. today is one of those days.. it's not a kind of pain or something. but it's just i can't help thinking about us. i start to feel grateful for this breakup now. it's not that i want a breakup for a long time but what happened happened. it's a life changing. i am beginning a new chapter of my life. this situation has changed me vastly and i've found new things when each day approaches me.

sometimes, i keep thinking and worry about him. i know he is in pain too and he will be fine but it's just the old habit dies hard. i always worried about him when we were together. he is working offshore for nearly a week now and hasn't called me since he left. i hope that he is coping well.

i am doing well. i take better care of myself. eat right, on time, more veggies and fruits. run more than before and i am trying to go out swimming once a week. before i would wait and postpone to do things like these. i just wanted to do and share it with him. but now, i just give it a go without thinking a second thought or asking if he wants to join me. i do what i feel like i want to do. i go out and drive my car running errands around town more.. i have no problem with doing things alone but previously i just kind of enjoyed shared moments..

i am not sad. i just miss us sometimes. i've some plans after the school break with my girlfriends. we are hopping to samui island together for a weekend and then i will go to bangkok to meet with old freinds for about 10 days.. it will be a great time and an awesome break... i really can't wait..