i had a great weekend. a happy, easy-going weekend. saturday morning, i drove home in time before py left for trang with her parents. so we had an hour to take some photos and play around the house. we have been moving into the new house for a week now. i love it so much. it's airy, spacy and full of light. some parts of it aren't completed yet but it's comfy to live in. i still haven't had a chance to sleep in my blue room yet. maybe, this weekend. when eating, i spent the longest time in the kitchen alone. i ate slowly and looked at the light crawling in from everywhere. i love the soft sunshine in the morning. py likes to run around the house and now i can't wait for phun to grow up. seeing them chasing one another around the house would be both a nightmare and heaven to all of us.

late in the morning, my sister had an appointment with her doctor so she left phun with me and my mom. it was so easy baby-sitting him for a few hours while his parents were away. but i am not sure sure for a whole day or two. he likes to sleep on someone's chest and he can sleep for hours like that.

in the afternoon, we sat outside the house, talking, making jokes and feeding phun. after having been busy with our own lives during the past few weeks, it was time to catch up among my dad, my sis and i. when having a chance, my dad would give us his wise speech encouraging us to invest in properties and buying houses or lands. last saturday was the same. he talked onstop about buying another piece of land. but you know what? he has been succeeded with my sister but failed with me. most of my money, i invested in airtickets taking me to some new places. my sis is daddy's girl. she follows dad's every step which is great for her. on the contrary, i am the one still gaming with life and being afraid of settling down... and they haven't had a clue that i've been through a heartbreak.

i am getting much better, though. i am over him and i've moved on with life. he is the one who is grieving over our breakup now. he texted me some messages before leaving to work offshore. i called him back to check on him. he didnt' take the call but later he called back. he didn't sound so good. i told him if he was away with work for a while and had more time to think, when he came back, both of us would be better and would talk normally. not that i will go back to him, but we would be able to talk like someone who used to care for each other. i don't want to hold grudges, so i decided to forgive him fast. but i still don't want to give his hopes up that i would go back to be his girl again. i want to stay single for a while and do things that i won't feel guilty..

this breakup has changed the person in me dramatically, in a better way though. i've paid more attention to people around me and many things more, especially myself. i am still able to trust people but i do it wiser. i talk openly and still risk emotionally more. i know i still won't be afraid to make more mistake but i will do it wiser. i want to say thank you to everyone; pu, or, toto, mod, dave, ying, rose, ross and some other friends who have been cheering me up and comforting me to get through this. i won't be better this soon without all of you. i am very grateful to have you guys as my friends. and for ross, i have never known you but you were very kind to stopped by on my blog and gave me some true advices on this. it means a lot and helps me hugely.. thank you again for your comment..

this weekend was the first time that i enjoyed eddy again. while phun was sleeping, i carried eddy around the house and took loads of picture, mostly flowers. i enjoy the time when my eye being glued to the viewfinder. i am at peace looking for the beauty from what i see in front of me. i like this one the most. it was phun's eye. the sun was very bright, so while taking this picture, i could see my own reflection in his little eyes.

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets, so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don’t, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it would be easy; they just promised that it would be worth it." -- from more than just a pretty face blog --