i have been avoiding to write about some shits from the past week here. so i posted some quotes instead. to lift me up. i am going through a hard time but i am on the stage of picking myself up. i must admit it makes me falling apart. i slept a lot during the weekend - day and night - hoping that when i wake up things i am getting through will be just a dream. unfortunately, it's real.

dave is here today. we went out for a cup of coffee at black canyon. we sat there for more than an hour. we catched up and shared jokes. he made me laugh alot. he knows what i am going through. i didn't mean to tell him or anyone but last week he texted saying he wanted to meet me today. i told him i didn't think i would be able to see him but he persisted and kept asking if i was okay. i gave up and told him by writing a long message on facebook. he read it before we went out for the coffee, so he knew i was wearing a happy face on the outside. i told him i refused to tell him in person as i was afraid of breaking down in front of him and that would spoil our meeting...

it is so good to see him again today. he will be around until tomorrow and i will drive him to the airport at lunch time. i wish he stays longer... no he is not one of my secret lovers. he is just a good friend..