last night i had a dream. a good one, i guess. i dreamed about cc, my long-time swedish lover. i think the reason i dream about him bc before closing my shop, i sat looking at photos from flickr of a cute swedish couple. i like their photography style; simple, easy and about day-to-day life.. so i kept looking and admiring thier life through their photos. when i went to sleep, my ex-swedish lover came back to me in the lucid dream.

it was a good dream of long-lost lovers who finally came back to see each other again. his hair was still long with dark gold color. his eyes were sparkling light blue. his lips were cherry red. his pale white skin was medium tan from strong sunlight.. i could feel it when i was dreaming.. it was weird but in the dream i felt i could touch him and feel him.. it was a long sweet dream.. when waking up, i felt the dream was still lingering with me and i didn't want to get up and leave that dream.. but eventually, i had to get back to reality.. i got up and wrote about it in my diary.. god..it's been 9 years and you still haunted me.. december 22 he will turn 34.. is it that why i still remember him?..it is the time of the year that i think of him..the whole 9 years.. though not talking to one another anymore, each year i still send him email to wish him happy birthday..